New moon tarot card reading

SO I did myself a big ass tarot card reading for the new moon that just passed last week.


One thing that I want to emphasize that there is no right or wrong way of doing this. I personally just feel myself shuffling and I become drawn to cards, and I never really lay them out in a specific way. I kind of know as I'm doing it if that makes sense.

This reading, I kind of did a big general outlook, like a typical ten card reading.

I drew three cards, placing one down, and two others on either side. This is my present. Then I drew two cards and placed one below and one above the center card. Those two were my foundation, my past. Next is the future, which are two cards above the rest. Far future, if you will. Then I asked specifically about finances (two on the left), career (two on right), and love (one card in the top right hand corner.. which I'm not looking too much into at the moment).

My three present cards were The Queen of Cups, The King of Wands, and Four Cups. These all connect so strongly and the fact that the queen and king are next to each other means a lot to me. And each of these cards represents creativity and assertiveness, femininity and masculinity. This is so interesting to me, especially in the suits that they are in... wands and cups. According to this website, Wands and Cups paired together looks a lot like Kings and Queens when they are paired together... a lot of energy but very different.

Of course I am no expert, but I have always felt like a giant paradox, and this reading has struck a chord with me. I feel the emotional and caring nudge of the Queen, also with me unlocking more of my intuitive nature recently. The King inspires me to take a hold of a situation and create new ways of doing old tasks.  Another great bit of info? (I found this on the website as well)

King of wands: forceful
-helps the Queen of Cups be more assertive
-annoys the Queen of Cups because he assumes she will follow him


(hehehe)

Next to the pair is the four of cups. This reflects a period of self reflection, focusing on oneself, but also missing what's right in front of us. I'm not sure what I am missing, I have some ideas, but I would rather not get into it.

However, this might not be the case. Learntarot.com states "In some situations, you must focus on yourself. When life is too stressful, you need to devote time and energy to yourself or you will feel swamped. The Four of Cups can represent a positive period of self-reflection and renewal. By taking the time to go within to dream, muse and reflect, you restore your emotional balance."

I think this is exactly right. As I've said in previous posts, my life is shifting, and I've been alone in solitude (for the most part). I have been creating a lot, finding myself, and thinking about and reevaluating my situation. I think that I was giving too much and trying too hard for a lot of things, so this period has helped me immensely.

The past: The chariot reversed is below the queen of cups. It's funny how this card is below the queen in the pat and the king is next to her now. The Chariot represents assertiveness and confidence, but reversed, means that the energy is there but not yet achieved. The King of wands demonstrates that maybe I have finally found that assertiveness and confidence, and that I can now utilize it in the way I want.


I think that the five wands reversed above the queen shows me that my energies were scattered (that's how I'm interpreting it at least, with four of cups next to her). I wasn't looking inward. I was getting a lot of information from external sources, which too much of can obviously be unhealthy.

My future holds two cards. One is the King of cups, which is in a different position from the king and queen in the present. Next to that is the three of cups reversed.

I was thinking recently about how I need to channel more "water" in my life. Enhance my emotional intelligence, become more in tune with my spirituality, becoming more fluid in life. Allowing myself to just "go with the flow" sometimes. And the cups (whose element is water) presented here show me that I will being doing just that (with some problems, of course).

The King of Cups is a wise man, who understands what goes on around him and give therapeutic advice. Open minded and patient, this king demonstrates that either I will achieve this or that someone (most likely a man) will arrive into my life sometime in the future. I'm excited for this, I hope that I can look back at this and know exactly who this is referring to. The three of Cups reversed shows that my sense of community and friendship is not going to be at it's best, but the energy is there. I just won't be able to access it right away, or I'll have trouble using it.

Now I directly relate this to moving away to California. I may be happy with myself, achieved my greatest self, but had a hard time balancing this with getting to know and meet new people. Which is just like me. Same thing happened at college for me. It's hard that first year to balance it all. Lately I have been more conscious of how I spend my time, and realizing that some time wasters have big parts in my life.Social media has been a big distraction. How many could I meet in the time that I'm just scrolling down insta, or checking my facebook? this has been bothering me a lot lately, to be be honest. I don't mind others doing so, I'm not trying to project my weird guilt onto anyone else. This is just something I've been thinking about recently.

Anyway, this reading was huge. I learned a lot, and I was able to open up my mind a lot more. This reading has showed me that I have some things to work on, as always. I'm excited for this journey, though!

-Maria