Blood Moon Tarot Reading

Wow. The night of the blood moon, September 27. A lot happened.

Okay. Where to begin?

I got home from work, and I just had some much needed relaxation. Around 8 p.m., I had the urge to do a tarot reading. I followed my gut. As I began to shuffle, I found myself talking out loud. I was asking questions, looking for guidance of any kind. I just need to hear something good.While I was shuffling, the Moon card fell out of my deck, exactly how it is in the photo. I was amazed. The moon's energy was that intense. I flt that the cards were telling me that they were listening. Or someone was listening.

I know this sounds pretty unbelievable. I know most of ou will not believe me. But I still want to share my experience.

I knew why I was talking out loud now. I wasn't aware, but I was not talking to myself. I was talking to my grandmother. I started crying because I truly felt this. My grandmother was a big part of my life until she passed away when I was a child. I was Overwhelmed, but I continued to shuffle the cards. I knew she was there with me at that moment. And I truly believed that she reached out to me through my cards.

I don't know if this is possible. This is how I felt.

I shuffled and then it felt perfect. I put down one card above the moon, and layed the rest of the cards out in three separate piles. From each of these piles, I turned over the top card. I just felt that was what I needed to do.

The five of pentacles represents hardship in every aspect. Economical, family, relationships. This represents my past, and I know this. I had a really rough childhood. I was an only child, I was over weight, my parents were constantly on the verge of divorce (they are good now, in fact, better than ever), I was extremely depressed and at times, suicidal. My parents had to file for bankruptcy, and we lost our house. We didn't end up homeless, but we almost did . I'm not writing this for pity, and the Wheel of Fortune demonstrates that. Things are becoming better and looking up. My past is the past, and I have accepted it, and I know that there is more for me in this world.

Now the cards the the left and to the right are what got me. This again, was my grandmother. The following is my own interpretation.
I think that my grandmother was telling me that she was here. She is represented in the Empress card. And my mother is the queen of cups reversed. My mother and I do not have the best relationship, it isn't bad either, but isn't the greatest. However, I think that my grandmother was telling me that I can find her within my mother. I think she's saying, "I'm not here, but you are not alone, either." I just lost it.

It was very emotional for me, as I never believed in these things. I did not make anyone feel badly if they had an experience like this, but I just never had my own experience. But maybe these things to not show themselves unless we open ourselves up to them.

-Maria