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Mini Goals + Astrological Madness

So, as it seems, the beginning of this year has been rocky for a few reasons. I'm talking astrological reasons. Not only has mercury been in retrograde, but this full moon in Leo, the wolf moon, is all about feeling like you've been "thrown to the wolves" recently, but will "com back leading the pack."
Boy, and I definitely feel that way. It's interesting that, for me, I'll be going through something, and then I'll research what's going on astrologically, and it just makes sense. Everything fits.

Mercury in retrograde fucked me up, and I knew it would. There was a lot of miscommunication, and so I've been thrown to the wolves, so to speak. Luckily the blind optimism that I hold deep down inside behind all of the depressing and anxious chatter is keeping me going.
So while I have been thrown to the wolves, I'm working to bounce back stronger than ever. I feel focused, I'm reaching out more (little by little, but I am making an effort), and I'm feeling more confident about my art (or rather, I still shake and feel like I'm going to puke when I share my personal work, but I'm still sharing it anyway). I feel like I'm nesting into the world a little bit more. I'm not totally settled in, but I'm getting there. I'm becoming more honest with myself and learning to love myself the way I am.

Full moons are about purging out some bad energies and thinking of things you would like to let go of as we get closer to the new moon in Aquarius. And sometimes you just need to be thrown to the wolves, sometimes you need miscommunication. This allows us to step back and evaluate. Mercury finally goes direct, and just in time to get back on track and begin making goals for myself.

Some things I'm working on:

-looking people in the eyes when I speak to them
-reaching out to people more
-opening up more
-asking more questions
-eating breakfast every day

I feel like I used to be so much more articulate, now I find myself fumbling over words I forgot or second guessing my word choice. I feel sure of myself in some ways, but when I try to explain myself, I just get all knotted up.

But I will work on it. Either way, I'm not stopping here.

Things coming soon:
-mini sewing project post
-tarot reading post
-my first art book
-new layout + finished pages for this blog

I also just wanted to say thank you to anyone who reads my posts. It means a lot.

-Mia

(Also it's funny to see that Brianna (Hello Virgo) just went over the same thing. Soul sisters.)


(I used elephant journal as a reference)

the last poem

you ask me why I don't live life
and I say

Damn, well, I'm trying

But my heart beats slow and steady
and I don't get that rush I used to,
So I ask, is this real?

Tucked away in skin and bones
so fragile and forgetful in the bed of another,

my tears will wake me tomorrow.
drowning in my little weeps
i stare at your frame
glowing under the pale light.



I will forget your face after tonight.

Announcement

I think that this space is going to be used primarily for my art. I will continue to write blurbs about personal experiences in relation to astrology, but this blog is just one big experiment for the time being. So here we go, 2016!

Edit: Undergoing a big reconstruction of my blog right now. I think I'm gonna change the name, too. I just see my life taking a different turn right now, and so the purpose of this blog is changing.
I think overall this blog will talk about healthy strategies to stay mentally healthy, and hopefully I will get some cool downloadable things and also showcase some of my art. I just want to make this blog an interactive art piece. I want you guys to see my art and make you feel something, and to participate in some of your own creative ventures. I guess I just want this to be a cool space for my to show you my art, and maybe you can show me yours, and we can talk about art and who inspires us. I just want to improve on all of my creative ventures, and I think that the first step to doing so is simply sharing. Sharing and receiving feedback will make me a better artist, photographer, cook, seamstress.

Refine + Reform

The other day, a few days before the semester starts, I decide to think about all of the things I will need to do in the coming months and how I won't have time for anything else besides work and my art and then what about my social life?? Friends?? Family??? And then trying to b outside, making my own meals, and also trying to do research for my own projects??? 

New Year Blues + Updates

So we are almost a week into the new year and already my life is back on a hectic tailspin of school, money, and work. I'm getting more hours at work which is good, but it leaves less time for art. I'm starting up my Ebay shop again after reading the first few chapters of #GirlBoss (inspiring read that I relate to a lot). I'll be relaunching my Etsy store with weird hand made goodies hopefully by the end of this month. I'm getting ready for classes to begin again, and dreading waking up at 6 a.m. on Tuesdays and Thursdays, just to drive through hell traffic (But what I do look forward to is the art that I will be making). I don't look forward to the papers I have to write. Then I have to do my taxes. Not to mention I'm still saving up to move out, to who knows where, because I don't know if I'll make it out to California this year. And then there is budgeting, and learning to save more and spend less. I don't want to rely on others for money ever again. And then there's my art. I want to do more but I feel like there isn't enough time in the day. I want to photograph more, and learn how to do new things.

Not to mention, Mercury also just went retrograde today, which we have already discussed (I did a tarot card reading).

I just want to be comfortable in my Cali apartment, away from here. Away from this big school, this tiny town, and (almost) all of the people in it.  I really do appreciate Florida for what it is - a sunny tropical paradise - but I can't take this anymore. I need out! I want out!

I don't want to hear all the fuss about valentines day, but I know I'm going to.

I'm tired, impatient, and cranky. But perhaps it is these feelings that propel me forward. I begin doing and changing. It's just growing pains. It's the fire within me. It's that stubborn Taurus and that spontaneous Sagittarius burning.

Some things that I AM looking forward to is, however:
-Learning new art stuff at school
-Sewing clothes and pillow cases and making weird jewelry for my etsy
-Wearing sweaters cause it's actually below 70 degrees in FL for once
-Taking class with one of my friends from last semester
-Saving money
-Making money
-Money
-Seeing my friends in Sarasota at the end of the month (including my friend Jordan who I have not seen since last summer!!!)
-Seeing my lovely friend Brianna sooner than I'll realize
-My friend Lacey's 21st birthday!
-Applying for internships



With all of this being said, I will also be working on this blog, trying to get it all organized. I'm feeling pretty confident, although I could be biting of more than I can chew.

It's fine, I just won't sleep + become a hermit.


(Also, if anyone actually reads these blog posts, I was just wondering what you all would be more interested in seeing. Please shoot me an e-mail or just comment below. I will use this feedback to make this blog better.)

-Mia