The Good, The Bad, and the Temporary
The full moon welcomes change in our relationships, so now is the perfect time to overcome that fear of getting closer to someone. Sometimes we simply overlook some of the most important people in our life because we think that they will always be there. This is a common misconception, and I have fell victim to this many times, and I'm sure that it might happen again. It's difficult to determine what is best for ourselves simply because we are wired to think that we are always doing what is best for us, even if "what is best for us" means a temporary pleasure. We are all still learning, but I strongly suggest taking some time out of your week to sit and think, "what is best for me, given the current circumstances? Why do I hurt? Am I choosing to be in this circumstance that causes me pain?" Maybe make a list of people who have impacted your life. Make a positive and negative list. These can overlap, as well. I have a couple of people who have impacted my life both positively and negatively.
This year I have taken note of the cycles in my life. Everything happens in cycles. Time doesn't repeat itself, that isn't what I mean (that is whole 'nother discussion). I mean, you know how in science class we learn that energy cannot be destroyed or created? Well, I have thought of this in terms of my life. The energies that I feel, both the negative and positive - these are always present within me and around me. The bad things don't go away, neither do the good. They rotate in importance. What must come up, must come down. But if there was no rain, then there would be no rainbow. 2015 has showed me a lot. The first half of the year was nonstop. Sadness, confusion, and a lot of mistake making. Though as the year grew older, as it is wrapping up, I have lost touch with a few people, some have moved away, and some have become more important to me. And this is where the cycles come in.
Although I have lost some people this year, and although I am not anything like I thought I might be, I am so happy. I know that everything is temporary. Maybe the happiness is temporary, but so is the sadness. Maybe this feeling of being at peace with my body is temporary, but so is the shame. Maybe my relationships are temporary, but we can always enjoy what we have when we have it. The key is not take the good for granted.
With all of this said, this thanksgiving I found myself thinking specifically about my friends.** They have done so much for me. When all other support failed me, they were my rock. They are my foundation. I give thanks to them everyday, but today I vocalize it. The encouragement I have received from them swells within me and drives me to do everything that everyone else thinks I can't do. I am so lucky to have people in my life that believe in me, and believe that I am good. Because they remind me that I am good, that I am just doing my best as much as anyone else. Even though I fuck up within all of the confusion that is my life, I always have a shoulder to lean on. The love I have for my friends is truly overwhelming sometimes, and I wish I could express that more.
If you do not typically do so, I challenge you, implore you, to talk to someone that you love today, and tell them how you feel. Tell them that you are thankful that they are alive, that they have made an impact on you. What is the worst that could happen? If someone does not want to talk to you because you appreciate them... why would you want that kind of negative person in your life anyway? It could be anyone. A parent, guardian, a friend, a partner, or maybe a sibling. Feel the goodness.
-Mia
**I wanted to give a special shout out to my friends in Sarasota. You have all given me so much, and you are like a second family to me. I love that when I visit, it's like nothing is different. We have all grown but we are still so close. I will always consider you all my friends. It's something that is unbreakable to me, although I may get angry or upset, it's temporary. I wish I could be with you all the time. You all were the biggest good that I took for granted. It was my own fault and I wish I would've spent more time with everyone while I was there.
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